Sad and lonely.
Sad, lonely and bored.
I struggle with seeing the good things in life and I’m bogged down with all the things that are bad and wrong.
The side in me that wants to quit, seems like it’s the winning side recently. My get up and go attitude has diminished so much. All I want to do is dive under my covers and disappear.
Disappear into a world where I mean something, where I’m important. Where life has a purpose and I have some sort of value.
I crave this world so much, that my heart yearns for it, more than it does the real world.
Every breath I breathe out here, is a breath that is stolen from the other world, stolen from the other me. The me that I want to be.
I don’t want to be here any more. I don’t want to have to struggle and suffer any more . I just want to be at peace.
I want to lay down and have the sun smile down at me and tell me that everything is okay now, that I am worth something, that I am important.
That I’m special.